Lot happened, got a new job, plus many experiences done, will update... eventually cause rn it is late but enjoy my new Kings of Hell obsession with some Pipistrello and the Cursed Yoyo enjoyment =3
If you saw some guy in a Luffy cosplay wearing glasses and a Luffy pin holding the strap on the Straw Hat together, that was me.
What do you do when you get paid big cash for working throughout an entire month? Make poor financial decisions is what. And my way of making those decisions came in the form of a local convention I went to this month. In all seriousness, it was genuinely such a fun experience not only being around various other nerds, having people recognize me as Luffy, and calling every other Luffy there "Bon-Clay" and "Bon-Chan" (peak character btw, so glad she's in a lot of the games) but also because of the artists that were around. Only now did it fully set in that I was not the only one around my area making cool art, and I'm so glad there were so many other artist checking this convention out. I took my sister along as well, and she had a great time, buying some stuff of her own.
Something that I had considered doing at other conventions was to try and talk to the artists who were at their alleys, or at least talk to them more... but honestly I felt like I would come off as creepy if I were to try that... but I still wanted to show my support to their craft, so I just went and bought a bunch of stickers, pins and keychains from them instead, that way I could at least financially support them. But this time, I decided to try and show my art at least and I got a lot of lovely reactions from so many artists. Many praised my work which really boosted my confidence in my own abilities for one thing, which I felt was really needed after my whole episode of constantly wondering "what exactly am I good for...?" for a good couple of months there. The best part was how my sister got inspired to share her art as well and she got a lot of praise as well for everything she had done. Two encouraged me to make a game with my skills, one asked why me and my sister didn't have a table set up, I let some artists know about a local shop that sells stickers, keychains and other knick-knacks made by local artists, and one let me in on a local sticker maker in return. I also found an artist who made Divorced Dofladile (Doflamingo X Crocodile but divorced) keychains and earrings and I decided to introduce them to MelonTeee, mainly because I had a strong feeling her videos would resonate with them, sweetening up the deal by mentioning how she's a lesbian ZoSan (Zoro X Sanji) shipper, so her opinions can certainly be trusted.
Besides those artists though, I also ran into a few comic artists, some who have worked on the industry for a long time and some who went and launched their own comics. I bought two graphic novels, one about a zombie apocalypse but with Disney styled cats called Feral and another made by a metal band called Punk Rock Time Machine, both of them even signed by the respective artists at the booth. There was another person who did tarot readings, and figured "Yeah sure, why not get a reading while I'm here". The first time I truly learned about tarot cards was through Persona 5 and I've held some respect for them since then, reading a bit more about the cards and where else they appeared in other media, but this was my first time getting a proper reading. So I sat down, decided that I would let the cards do their thing without my input and watched as the fortune teller did their thing with their Fallout themed tarot deck. And y'know what? The cards read me pretty freaking well. They correctly read my passion for the jobs I held, the fact that I wear my heart on my sleeve but also have difficulty expressing myself, and the fact that I had recently developed feelings for someone... then they told me that 18 is my important number for fate... So that was an experience, we'll have to see if anything happens on the 18th of this month. I had a few other minor experiences happen as well, such as someone giving me a Luffy sticker they bought because of my cosplay and the fact that I ran into the same Scott Pilgrim and Ramona Flowers cosplayers three times during the day. I high fived both of them during the third time while we were leaving lol.
I also got to high five Sean Chiplock, tell Jamieson Price about how he'd be the perfect fit for Brewster should an official Animal Crossing Movie dub come out, show Melissa Fahn "Cowboy BeBop at His Computer", and a pic and autograph by Maurice LaMarche while he complimented my cosplay (He didn't know who Luffy was but he liked his fit). Sean and some other voice actors actually did a panel and mentioned how companies especially like to hire voice actors that people are passionate about and y'know Sean... I gotta say... I'm very passionate about voice actors, I'm so glad they exist to breathe so much life into all sorts of characters, I get excited whenever I hear a familiar voice come out of a character's mouth, and I love hearing about everything that goes into voice acting. In spite of all that though, voice actors are criminally underrated and I strongly feel that they deserve so mucn better. Sean I may have flubbed up my words with you, especially the first time, but it's because I've heard you in so many characters and I just didn't know where to begin or what to say to someone like you. You may see yourself as some average guy, at least that's the vibe I get from so many other voice actors, but regardless... thank you for being so kind and patient to this awkward Luffy-cosplaying guy. You made his day.
Ah yeah, commissions are also open once again, recently finished one up too. $45 as a starting price. Ya want more info, check out the Commissions tab. I styled the sheet after older fighting games in the 3D era because I thought the look of those games had a lot of charm to it, and also because I figured a mockup character select screen would be much smaller and less of a pain to deal with compared to my first sheet.
And now for a list of artists I met at this convention from taking their business cards and pics of their fliers
And just for the sake of it, here are some artists I met at other cons
Update
Ultimately broke up with iframe in favor of web components for the container and footer.
Update 2
Added older art, drafts and scraps to gallery
...Welp, what was supposed to be a summary of what I've been up to turned into an entire vent. If you wanna hear me spill my load, look below. Anyhow, raffle never happened lol, may or may not try again idk. I'm gonna open commissions again soon though. I'm also joining Art Fight this year. Gonna update the page too with the power of adderall by my side (What that update was originally gonna be about, got prescribed finally). Overall, things are better than before.
WARNING: Vent Below
Update 7/25/25: Felt a lil uncomfortable with this just being here, apologies
To think I would use this more... alas, I once again had other things at hand to deal with. So I'm just going to say it, I've been put through the wringer mentally for the past couple of months. Low self image issues, failing to reach milestones at my age, inability to get a job, a constant feeling as if I was wasting my time and life. And the constant executive dysfunctional moments sure didn't do any sort of help whatsoever, in fact those moments that were frequent were the biggest plague upon my psyche as it was used as fuel to be further berated, making me feel like the biggest freeloader around which further fueled my own self pity and guilt which further went and fueled my depression which I had developed throughout my period of unemployment because a bright future in a career space that seemed like the only feasible job for me and my mind had eroded into nothing by the time I was ready to enter that career field and not even the minimum wage jobs around my area was answering me back at all, with my efforts to go in person as suggested leading to the same answers such as "We're hiring in a month or two or next season", or "Just check our website" and the information that I was given being the fact that every applicant for those jobs are basically chosen by raffle and everywhere I looked online everyone else struggles with unemployment and ghost jobs sure didn't help me see any sort of light at all and in fact made me believe that I was caved in this miserable tunnel simply due to outside circumstances OH BUT IF ONLY I TRIED HARDER EARLIER IN MY LIFE AND IF ONLY I LACKED MORALS SO I COULD PARTICIPATE INTO MONEY VENTURES LIKE NFTS AND IF ONLY I DIDN'T HAVE AUTISM AND ADHD AND A GIRLFRIEND IF ONLY I HAD ALL THAT INSTEAD OF STAYING IN MY ROOM FOR HOURS AS I ATTEMPT TO FREELANCE OR ATTEMPT TO DO COMMISSIONS FOR CASH ALL SO HE CAN SHUT THE HELL UP AND LEAVE ME BE THEN I WOULDN'T BE IN THIS MESS IN THE FIRST PLACE AND HAVE SOME CASH!!!
But now I'm all good! =3
Yeah I was... told a lot of things throughout the time, I may be overexaggerating things but almost no one contacted me back in spite of how much I could muster up the ability to try, I only got contacted thrice... ever... One turned out to be a scam that shut down my bank account cause I nearly fell for it like a dumbass, the other turned out to be a pyramid scheme with some health insurance thing and the last I just straight up bombed, all out of like 200 jobs I applied to. I only lucked out with my current job simply because I arrived at the location at the right place at the right time and the boss recognized me from a party her daughter had hosted for the coding school we attended. I got it on the spot. It's more of an odd job where I help to run a game trailer to bookings just ensuring things run smoothly and resolve any issues that arise but everyone there including my bosses seem to like me... for who I am??? Genuinely a wild concept ay that point, yeah I know pretty sad that that of all things was wild to me but being called a freak strange p***y f****t weirdo dumbass r[EDACTED] sure didn't help even if he didn't mean it or was just "playing around" sure made me feel unlovable wow who would've thunk. To give credit where credit is due, he did help with getting an electric bike and fixing some things around the house and forced me to get out more which I did need, but still. Nah screw that, after responding to a couple of questions he had about my future with "I don't know" which translates to "I know damn well you're gonna go and push me down with some negatively cynical bigoted ass crap that's still rooted in reality so I won't be able to argue back regardless if I give you a valid response so I'm not gonna say jack" and then threatening to kick me out of the house at 25 (as if I could in this economy), I'm just gonna move in with my secondary support system when I learn to drive, even if it means I'll be living with less. I've done it for this past month already and they've been nothing but supportive to me, hell even when I was unemployed they've shown unconditional love and support, reminding me that I'm always welcome in their house no matter what.
All that being said, I'm glad to have some new people to lean on, and the reminder that I'll always have a secondary support system should my primary one fall for any reason is nice. I've also been offered to work even further with my bosses beyond my current position in the company to do coding stuff so I think I'll stick around with them further to see what goes on. And even if that fails and the berating continues, then at least I'll have another support system that understands that things come at their own time rather than one that puts constant pressure with little encouragement.
Yup, it's official, I will create you things if you pay me. After waiting so long for some sort of call back from a variety of places, I decided to take financial matters of some form into my own hands. The Art and about Pages may be completely generic and barebones but goddamn did I deck the hell out my Commissions page. Then again with that I at least had a frame of reference in the form of my commission sheet, which that itself was an entire beast which i had to try and figure out with how ambitious yet big the gif size was. Like it's a work of art to me but too much of a work of art for other sites to handle (33MB) and not to mention even when I finally got the gif compressed enough to where it looked fine on the surface, it was indeed not fine when I sent it into Discord. I may have to make a new static version of the image in this case.
As for the commissions themselves, I've honestly been wanting to do commissions for a while now but I've never had the reach nor the experience necessary to tackle such things until now. Not only that but the number is also growing at a steady pace the more I casually post my art and shitposts. It... makes me feel seen y'know... like these cool people I look up to, I'm technically among those ranks. Nowhere near as big but every now and then I'll see some relatively big artist like one of my art pieces so I at least know I have my foot in the door with the community as a whole. Who knew that simply participating in online art spaces would get you some sort of notice.
Speaking of online spaces though, I actually recently reached a 300 follower count milestone on Bluesky and I only noticed how close I was just a few days ago. So of course we have to celebrate this sort of occassion. I'm going to do a raffle... at some point idk just yet. Listen I'm still pretty new here and I need to get some stuff worked out first, but I do want to do a raffle. I still have like eight more requests to do on top of two more potential projects on the horizon and on top of the usual life stuff, but I still want to do a raffle dammit, I want to get good at low poly models to where it becomes second nature to me. Because I know this has potential of some kind for someone like me.
That aside, I've set a goal to start a raffle the day before the Half Off Sale ends, if not sooner... Oh yeah my commissions are starting a half the usual price until March 11th. so if you want a low poly model of yourself or your friend or anyone's OC for $15 at the least, please consider my deal. In general though I'm honestly just happy that I'm able to do low poly stuff in the first place... like... at all y'know? And if it gets me sime extra money so people can't totally say it's useless or futile, I'm doing what I love and I'm getting paid for it. That's all that matters to me. (Just saying though, I'm still hoping to get a tech job of some kind in the future, if you know any openings in the Pacific coast especially then please reach out like genuinely I am so tired of being ghosted all the freaking time in job application sites and even in person to an extent)
Man it has been quite a while since I updated here huh... this is absolutely going to hurt my GitHub commit activity... But why the long wait? Another hiatus maybe? Nope, me not updating was just an unintended side effect of relearning Blockbench to make a low poly model on top of an upcoming interview that past week (I did not get the job =[ ).
So yeah me not landing the job did hurt me a bit, even though I had a bit of an expectation that I was just inherently unprepared considering it was my first real interview and even though I reassured myself that more opportunites would present themselves in due time. How did I cope with this? By finishing up a low poly model I started on days before the interview, the healthiest coping mechanism imaginable.
Really though, after I finished my model it genuinely energized me after I was done, and it happened again when I was nearly finished with another model. Seems dopamine really is a hell of a chemical huh, no wonder humans are super curious, and it's that desire for creation that makes me want to do things like programming for a living.
Right now though I'm feeling in a better enough mood to go about the hunt again. In spite of the hellish conditions in the US there seems to be more job openings for programmers and I even got a tip from my coding teacher to ensure I land a job. The only issue being that it would mean locking myself away in my room to work on a project for days on end, not being nearly as efficient akin to whenever I learn something new so I need another source of revenue to justify doing that in the first place. And since the places I've applied aren't calling back so far I've started looking into opening commissions for low poly 3D models akin to the one I'm showing right now. I took up a handful of requests already and on top of that I still need to finish a site for an IRL client.
In the meantime I'm opening up the art page and will soon convert it into an Art/Comm page for people to send request for commissions over. When they open up the plan will be to price MOTHER 3 sprites at $10 with walk cycles being an extra $2 and low poly models being $30. So long as I'm making some sort of income this should be sufficient.
Update Feb 24
I'm preparing a commission sheet right now and I'm going to use this site to host my ToS. I also decided to just make art and commissions their own pages.
Pixel art my beloved
It is finally done, I have created a walk cycle for every possible party member, which can be found in the Roster tab. I even added some additional party members throughout, with more to come later.
I also went and made a couple minor changes to the site and fixed some odd bugs. No mobile view just yet, however that is planned alongside a couple other things, such as
The plans aren't much right now, though I'm sure as time passes I'll think of more things to give this site.
Friendship ended with Rotation Styling, now iframe is my best friend
So rotation didn't quite work as well as I would have hoped... I
tried my best to be lazy efficient with how I wanted
this console to look on mobile, but alas rotation treated the
screen sizes weird and so I had to scrap it.
Guess it's time I put in some effort and figure out a way to make this actually responsive somehow. So far my plan to accomplish this involves using the index page as the layout and making pages appear in an iframe.
The only caveat is that CSS breakpoints are now broken this way due to the portion reading the iframe rather than the full page. That could theoretically be fixed by filling the section via Javascript instead, but I don't feel like doing that right now, so we'll stick with iframes for now and we'll see how long that will last. Also URLs won't function as intended for the time being, but the sidebar buttons will work again
In other news, the job hunt so far has proven somewhat fruitful, I went to one open house interview the other day and I think I did pretty well. If I'm chosen then they'll call me next week, and if not then another one is happening in two weeks, and if neither of those work then there's also like four other jobs doing interviews on February or March, one of which is more of an assistance program than a job. To be honest, I kinda hope I land a position with the assistance program if only to simplify my bus trip to just one bus ride compared to two with the others, though I'd be satisfied if I get a job anywhere at this point..
So long as I stop feeling like I'm freeloading and can enjoy things again, I'll be satisfied. Hell, I'm satisfied with at least trying, but I'll be more satisfied AND paid if I get a proper job. With all that being said, remember to take care of yourself, you shouldn't stress yourself to the point of burnout or depression, I let it happen to me and it was the worst. Remember to enjoy things even if you feel a little guilty doing so.
...oh yeah also font change lol
I go sideways now, mothertrucker
...Albeit at the cost of two party members, the graphics shop, the general size, and redundant nothingness at the bottom... at least for the time being...
I'll fix it all in due time though. For now, I'm just glad I actually have some responsiveness somewhat.
I'll also make different version style sheets in due time, likely with the next site update. For now, you know the drill probably, CTRL+Shift+R to clear cache
Happy New Years! And here's to getting my crap together soon enough!
Certainly quite the overhaul, ain't it?
Now what compelled me to make this look like a near two and a half decade old system? ...Honestly I'm not sure, but I'm glad I went this route regardless. There's more work to be done but so far this is starting to come out pretty good. I, of course, have more plans for this site if the new locked out sidebar buttons were any indicator. Heck, I even went through and updated the 404 page if you're curious. Right now though it is late, I need to improve my sleep schedule and find an actual job (Not to say this doesn't help, I update my GitHub every time I update this site) but sometimes I do surprise myself with what I come up with.
I also added four new buttons to the Graphics Shop if you're interested, and I plan to utilize my own personal collection with the shop as well at some point.
And again, if you see any weird styling, CTRL+Shift+R to clear cache.
Currently reworking this site*, enjoy the graphics shop and MOTHER 3-esque footer with cool links in the meantime
Also feel free to check out the sites I've linked in the bottom, just saying, no pressure
One more thing, I recently learned that Neocities styling can be weird, where styles won't update normally, instead using cached versions if you've visited previously. In this case, I decided to name my style "stylebeta.css" so I don't have to make different version numbered styles. If you see some weird styling, it's either unfinished, or you need to press CTRL + Shift + R to hard refresh and clear the cache
*The Neocities site before was literally just the Graphics Bazaar and nothing else
*The background was originally the EarthBound File Select grid in all its eyestrainy small blocky brightly colored glory made worse with how the background could scroll alongside it. The background you see now with the big blocks and softer colors that's locked in the background was made as a result of someone warning me about potential danger so thanks for the heads-up even after all these years later
**This was when I had previous blogs accessible via dropdown rather than buttons
So I finally
got around to updating my website after neglecting it for so
long, I suppose obligaton is a good motivation in some cases.
And oh wow, what an overhaul it is, this thing used to just be a
list of art and now it has pages and junk. There's certainly
more I wish to do here, and hopefully the higher powers of CSS
will be kind to me. Will it be hell to work with? Maybe, but at
least I can see the changes instantly... for now at least, and
hoo boy do I feel like Javascript will throw a wrench at things
when I get to it. Regardless I hope to really spruce up this
site because I can't live like this forever... there isn't
enough video game references!
Welcome to my art gallery! There's barely anything here at the moment, so far I've only sorted through my art by recognizable dates, everything else is in the unsorted category and lacks the QOL attributes that the sorted pieces have, but I'm glad to have made this regardless, especially since this is my first time working with HTML in general. I hope to expand this more sometime, and I hope you see the progress as well. =)
Here's the one that inspired me to try this for myself
*My first page was originally just a single page where I uploaded my art rather than a fully fleshed out website
03/15/23
Welcome to my art gallery! I've added and sorted through some of my art and hoo boy did I cringe at my old art... not that I hate it, it's just smething that comes with aging and getting better. Surely I'll have the same effect with this page, but as of right now, I'm still glad to have made this page. Note that some pieces lack titles and even alt text, but don't worry I'll come around to it when I update again. I hope to expand this more sometime, and I hope you see the progress as well. =)
You may notice that there is a cat following your cursor/finger now... well I'm not keeping any secrets, here's where I got mine.**
And hey... wanna listen to some tunes? (ADDICTI.MOD by Noiseless)**
**This was when my page originally had oneko.js integrated and when I could locally host audio files for ADDICTI.MOD to be played
03/30/23
Welcome to my art gallery! It took quite some time but I got most of the alt text out of the way, however I hope to finish applying alt text to all my art before I move on to trying out new things. Some of the alt text will likely be changed overtime to better suit things, and there will be more to add here so stay tuned. I hope to expand this more sometime, and I hope you see the progress as well. =)