If you saw some guy in a Luffy cosplay wearing glasses and a Luffy
pin holding the strap on the Straw Hat together, that was me.
What do you do when you get paid big cash for working throughout an
entire month? Make poor financial decisions is what. And my way of
making those decisions came in the form of a local convention I went
to this month. In all seriousness, it was genuinely such a fun
experience not only being around various other nerds, having people
recognize me as Luffy, and calling every other Luffy there
"Bon-Clay" and "Bon-Chan" (peak character btw, so glad she's in a
lot of the games) but also because of the artists that were around.
Only now did it fully set in that I was not the only one around my
area making cool art, and I'm so glad there were so many other
artist checking this convention out. I took my sister along as well,
and she had a great time, buying some stuff of her own.
Something that I had considered doing at other conventions was to
try and talk to the artists who were at their alleys, or at least
talk to them more... but honestly I felt like I would come off as
creepy if I were to try that... but I still wanted to show my
support to their craft, so I just went and bought a bunch of
stickers, pins and keychains from them instead, that way I could at
least financially support them. But this time, I decided to try and
show my art at least and I got a lot of lovely reactions from so
many artists. Many praised my work which really boosted my
confidence in my own abilities for one thing, which I felt was
really needed after my whole episode of constantly wondering "what
exactly am I good for...?" for a good couple of months there. The
best part was how my sister got inspired to share her art as well
and she got a lot of praise as well for everything she had done. Two
encouraged me to make a game with my skills, one asked why me and my
sister didn't have a table set up, I let some artists know about a
local shop that sells stickers, keychains and other knick-knacks
made by local artists, and one let me in on a local sticker maker in
return. I also found an artist who made Divorced Dofladile
(Doflamingo X Crocodile but divorced) keychains and earrings and I
decided to introduce them to MelonTeee, mainly because I had a
strong feeling her videos would resonate with them, sweetening up
the deal by mentioning how she's a lesbian ZoSan (Zoro X Sanji)
shipper, so her opinions can certainly be trusted.
Besides those artists though, I also ran into a few comic artists,
some who have worked on the industry for a long time and some who
went and launched their own comics. I bought two graphic novels, one
about a zombie apocalypse but with Disney styled cats called
Feral
and another made by a metal band called
Punk Rock Time Machine, both of them even signed by the respective artists at the booth.
There was another person who did tarot readings, and figured "Yeah
sure, why not get a reading while I'm here". The first time I truly
learned about tarot cards was through Persona 5 and I've held some
respect for them since then, reading a bit more about the cards and
where else they appeared in other media, but this was my first time
getting a proper reading. So I sat down, decided that I would let
the cards do their thing without my input and watched as the fortune
teller did their thing with their Fallout themed tarot deck. And
y'know what? The cards read me pretty freaking well. They correctly
read my passion for the jobs I held, the fact that I wear my heart
on my sleeve but also have difficulty expressing myself, and the
fact that I had recently developed feelings for someone... then they
told me that 18 is my important number for fate... So that was an
experience, we'll have to see if anything happens on the 18th of
this month. I had a few other minor experiences happen as well, such
as someone giving me a Luffy sticker they bought because of my
cosplay and the fact that I ran into the same Scott Pilgrim and
Ramona Flowers cosplayers three times during the day. I high fived
both of them during the third time while we were leaving lol.
I also got to high five
SeanChiplock, tell
JamiesonPrice
about how he'd be the perfect fit for Brewster should an official
Animal Crossing Movie dub come out, show
MelissaFahn"Cowboy BeBop at His Computer", and a pic and autograph by
Maurice
LaMarche
while he complimented my cosplay (He didn't know who Luffy was but
he liked his fit). Sean and some other voice actors actually did a
panel and mentioned how companies especially like to hire voice
actors that people are passionate about and y'know Sean... I gotta
say... I'm very passionate about voice actors, I'm so glad they
exist to breathe so much life into all sorts of characters, I get
excited whenever I hear a familiar voice come out of a character's
mouth, and I love hearing about everything that goes into voice
acting. In spite of all that though, voice actors are criminally
underrated and I strongly feel that they deserve so mucn better.
Sean I may have flubbed up my words with you, especially the first
time, but it's because I've heard you in so many characters and I
just didn't know where to begin or what to say to someone like you.
You may see yourself as some average guy, at least that's the vibe I
get from so many other voice actors, but regardless... thank you for
being so kind and patient to this awkward Luffy-cosplaying guy. You
made his day.
Ah yeah, commissions are also open once again, recently finished one
up too. $45 as a starting price. Ya want more info, check out the
Commissions tab. I styled the sheet after older fighting games in
the 3D era because I thought the look of those games had a lot of
charm to it, and also because I figured a mockup character select
screen would be much smaller and less of a pain to deal with
compared to my first sheet.
And now for a list of artists I met at this convention from taking
their business cards and pics of their fliers
...Welp, what was supposed to be a summary of what I've been up to
turned into an entire vent. If you wanna hear me spill my load, look
below. Anyhow, raffle never happened lol, may or may not try again
idk. I'm gonna open commissions again soon though. I'm also joining
Art Fight
this year. Gonna update the page too with the power of adderall by
my side (What that update was originally gonna be about, got
prescribed finally). Overall, things are better than before.
WARNING: Vent Below
To think I would use this more... alas, I once again had other
things at hand to deal with. So I'm just going to say it, I've
been put through the wringer mentally for the past couple of
months. Low self image issues, failing to reach milestones at my
age, inability to get a job, a constant feeling as if I was
wasting my time and life. And the constant executive dysfunctional
moments sure didn't do any sort of help whatsoever, in fact those
moments that were frequent were the biggest plague upon my psyche
as it was used as fuel to be further berated, making me feel like
the biggest freeloader around which further fueled my own self
pity and guilt which further went and fueled my depression which I
had developed throughout my period of unemployment
because a bright future in a career space that seemed like the
only feasible job for me and my mind had eroded into nothing by
the time I was ready to enter that career field and not even the
minimum wage jobs around my area was answering me back at all,
with my efforts to go in person as suggested leading to the same
answers such as "We're hiring in a month or two or next season",
or "Just check our website"
and the information that I was given being the fact that every
applicant for those jobs are basically chosen by raffle and
everywhere I looked online everyone else struggles with
unemployment and ghost jobs sure didn't help me see any sort
of light at all and in fact made me believe that I was caved
in this miserable tunnel simply due to outside circumstances
OH BUT IF ONLY I TRIED HARDER EARLIER IN MY LIFE AND IF ONLY
I LACKED MORALS SO I COULD PARTICIPATE INTO MONEY VENTURES
LIKE NFTS AND IF ONLY I DIDN'T HAVE AUTISM AND ADHD AND A
GIRLFRIEND IF ONLY I HAD ALL THAT INSTEAD OF STAYING IN MY
ROOM FOR HOURS AS I ATTEMPT TO FREELANCE OR ATTEMPT TO DO
COMMISSIONS FOR CASH ALL SO HE CAN SHUT THE HELL UP AND
LEAVE ME BE THEN I WOULDN'T BE IN THIS MESS IN THE FIRST
PLACE AND HAVE SOME CASH!!!
But now I'm all good! =3
Yeah I was... told a lot of things throughout the time, I may be
overexaggerating things but almost no one contacted me back in
spite of how much I could muster up the ability to try, I only got
contacted thrice... ever... One turned out to be a scam that shut
down my bank account cause I nearly fell for it like a dumbass,
the other turned out to be a pyramid scheme with some health
insurance thing and the last I just straight up bombed, all out of
like 200 jobs I applied to. I only lucked out with my current job
simply because I arrived at the location at the right place at the
right time and the boss recognized me from a party her daughter
had hosted for the coding school we attended. I got it on the
spot. It's more of an odd job where I help to run a game trailer
to bookings just ensuring things run smoothly and resolve any
issues that arise but everyone there including my bosses seem to
like me... for who I am??? Genuinely a wild concept ay that point,
yeah I know pretty sad that that of all things was wild to me but
being called a freak strange p***y f****t weirdo dumbass
r[EDACTED] sure didn't help even if he didn't mean it or was just
"playing around" sure made me feel unlovable wow who would've
thunk.
To give credit where credit is due, he did help with getting an
electric bike and fixing some things around the house and forced
me to get out more which I did need, but still.
Nah screw that, after responding to a couple of questions he had
about my future with "I don't know" which translates to "I know
damn well you're gonna go and push me down with some negatively
cynical bigoted ass crap that's still rooted in reality so I won't
be able to argue back regardless if I give you a valid response so
I'm not gonna say jack" and then threatening to kick me out of the
house at 25 (as if I could in this economy), I'm just gonna move
in with my secondary support system when I learn to drive, even if
it means I'll be living with less. I've done it for this past
month already and they've been nothing but supportive to me, hell
even when I was unemployed they've shown unconditional love and
support, reminding me that I'm always welcome in their house no
matter what.
All that being said, I'm glad to have some new people to lean on,
and the reminder that I'll always have a secondary support system
should my primary one fall for any reason is nice. I've also been
offered to work even further with my bosses beyond my current
position in the company to do coding stuff so I think I'll stick
around with them further to see what goes on. And even if that
fails and the berating continues, then at least I'll have another
support system that understands that things come at their own time
rather than one that puts constant pressure with little
encouragement.
Commissions Are Open For Business
Yup, it's official, I will create you things if you pay me. After
waiting so long for some sort of call back from a variety of places,
I decided to take financial matters of some form into my own hands.
The Art and about Pages may be completely generic and barebones but
goddamn did I deck the hell out my Commissions page. Then again with
that I at least had a frame of reference in the form of my
commission sheet, which that itself was an entire beast which i had
to try and figure out with how ambitious yet big the gif size was.
Like it's a work of art to me but too much of a work of art for
other sites to handle (33MB) and not to mention even when I finally
got the gif compressed enough to where it looked fine on the
surface, it was indeed not fine when I sent it into Discord. I may
have to make a new static version of the image in this case.
As for the commissions themselves, I've honestly been wanting to do
commissions for a while now but I've never had the reach nor the
experience necessary to tackle such things until now. Not only that
but the number is also growing at a steady pace the more I casually
post my art and shitposts. It... makes me feel seen y'know... like
these cool people I look up to, I'm technically among those ranks.
Nowhere near as big but every now and then I'll see some relatively
big artist like one of my art pieces so I at least know I have my
foot in the door with the community as a whole. Who knew that simply
participating in online art spaces would get you some sort of
notice.
Speaking of online spaces though, I actually recently reached a 300
follower count milestone on Bluesky and I only noticed how close I
was just a few days ago. So of course we have to celebrate this sort
of occassion. I'm going to do a raffle... at some point idk just
yet. Listen I'm still pretty new here and I need to get some stuff
worked out first, but I do want to do a raffle. I still have like
eight more requests to do on top of two more potential projects on
the horizon and on top of the usual life stuff, but I still want to
do a raffle dammit, I want to get good at low poly models to where
it becomes second nature to me. Because I know this has potential of
some kind for someone like me.
That aside, I've set a goal to start a raffle the day before the
Half Off Sale ends, if not sooner... Oh yeah my commissions are
starting a half the usual price until March 11th. so if you want a
low poly model of yourself or your friend or anyone's OC for $15 at
the least, please consider my deal. In general though I'm honestly
just happy that I'm able to do low poly stuff in the first place...
like... at all y'know? And if it gets me sime extra money so people
can't totally say it's useless or futile, I'm doing what I love and
I'm getting paid for it. That's all that matters to me. (Just saying
though, I'm still hoping to get a tech job of some kind in the
future, if you know any openings in the Pacific coast especially
then please reach out like genuinely I am so tired of being ghosted
all the freaking time in job application sites and even in person to
an extent)
Hello again, world!
Man it has been quite a while since I updated here huh... this is
absolutely going to hurt my GitHub commit activity... But why the
long wait? Another hiatus maybe? Nope, me not updating was just an
unintended side effect of relearning Blockbench to make a low poly
model on top of an upcoming interview that past week (I did not get
the job =[ ).
So yeah me not landing the job did hurt me a bit, even though I had
a bit of an expectation that I was just inherently unprepared
considering it was my first real interview and even though I
reassured myself that more opportunites would present themselves in
due time. How did I cope with this? By finishing up a low poly model
I started on days before the interview, the healthiest coping
mechanism imaginable.
Really though, after I finished my model it genuinely energized me
after I was done, and it happened again when I was nearly finished
with another model. Seems dopamine really is a hell of a chemical
huh, no wonder humans are super curious, and it's that desire for
creation that makes me want to do things like programming for a
living.
Right now though I'm feeling in a better enough mood to go about the
hunt again. In spite of the hellish conditions in the US there seems
to be more job openings for programmers and I even got a tip from my
coding teacher to ensure I land a job. The only issue being that it
would mean locking myself away in my room to work on a project for
days on end, not being nearly as efficient akin to whenever I learn
something new so I need another source of revenue to justify doing
that in the first place. And since the places I've applied aren't
calling back so far I've started looking into opening commissions
for low poly 3D models akin to the one I'm showing right now. I took
up a handful of requests already and on top of that I still need to
finish a site for an IRL client.
In the meantime I'm opening up the art page and will soon convert it
into an Art/Comm page for people to send request for commissions
over. When they open up the plan will be to price MOTHER 3 sprites
at $10 with walk cycles being an extra $2 and low poly models being
$30. So long as I'm making some sort of income this should be
sufficient.
Update Feb 24
I'm preparing a commission sheet right now and I'm going to use this
site to host my ToS. I also decided to just make art and commissions
their own pages.
Pixel art my beloved
It is finally done, I have created a walk cycle for every possible
party member, which can be found in the Roster tab. I even added
some additional party members throughout, with more to come later.
I also went and made a couple minor changes to the site and fixed
some odd bugs. No mobile view just yet, however that is planned
alongside a couple other things, such as
•A new font for the site
•Settings on the right side
•Proper styled audio element
•A proper About page
•Art and Interest pages
•A new color scheme in general
•A guestbook
•A chat page(?)
The plans aren't much right now, though I'm sure as time passes I'll
think of more things to give this site.
Friendship ended with Rotation Styling, now iframe is my best friend
So rotation didn't quite work as well as I would have hoped... I
tried my best to be lazy efficient with how I wanted this
console to look on mobile, but alas rotation treated the screen
sizes weird and so I had to scrap it.
Guess it's time I put in some effort and figure out a way to make
this actually responsive somehow. So far my plan to accomplish this
involves using the index page as the layout and making pages appear
in an iframe.
The only caveat is that CSS breakpoints are now broken this way due
to the portion reading the iframe rather than the full page. That
could theoretically be fixed by filling the section via Javascript
instead, but I don't feel like doing that right now, so we'll stick
with iframes for now and we'll see how long that will last. Also
URLs won't function as intended for the time being, but the sidebar
buttons will work again
In other news, the job hunt so far has proven somewhat fruitful, I
went to one open house interview the other day and I think I did
pretty well. If I'm chosen then they'll call me next week, and if
not then another one is happening in two weeks, and if neither of
those work then there's also like four other jobs doing interviews
on February or March, one of which is more of an assistance program
than a job. To be honest, I kinda hope I land a position with the
assistance program if only to simplify my bus trip to just one bus
ride compared to two with the others, though I'd be satisfied if I
get a job anywhere at this point..
So long as I stop feeling like I'm freeloading and can enjoy things
again, I'll be satisfied. Hell, I'm satisfied with at least trying,
but I'll be more satisfied AND paid if I get a proper job. With all
that being said, remember to take care of yourself, you shouldn't
stress yourself to the point of burnout or depression, I let it
happen to me and it was the worst. Remember to enjoy things even if
you feel a little guilty doing so.
...oh yeah also font change lol
I go sideways now, mothertrucker
...Albeit at the cost of two party members, the graphics shop, the
general size, and redundant nothingness at the bottom... at least for
the time being...
I'll fix it all in due time though. For now, I'm just glad I actually
have some responsiveness somewhat.
I'll also make different version style sheets in due time, likely with
the next site update. For now, you know the drill probably,
CTRL+Shift+R to clear cache
Happy New Years! And here's to getting my crap together soon enough!
Certainly quite the overhaul, ain't it?
Now what compelled me to make this look like a near two and a half
decade old system? ...Honestly I'm not sure, but I'm glad I went this
route regardless. There's more work to be done but so far this is
starting to come out pretty good. I, of course, have more plans for
this site if the new locked out sidebar buttons were any indicator.
Heck, I even went through and updated the
404 page
if you're curious. Right now though it is late, I need to improve my
sleep schedule and find an actual job (Not to say this doesn't help, I
update my GitHub every time I update this site) but sometimes I do
surprise myself with what I come up with.
I also added four new buttons to the Graphics Shop if you're
interested, and I plan to utilize my own personal collection with the
shop as well at some point.
And again, if you see any weird styling, CTRL+Shift+R to clear cache.
Currently reworking this site*, enjoy the graphics shop and MOTHER
3-esque footer with cool links in the meantime
Also feel free to check out the sites I've linked in the bottom, just
saying, no pressure
One more thing, I recently learned that Neocities styling can be
weird, where styles won't update normally, instead using cached
versions if you've visited previously. In this case, I decided to name
my style "stylebeta.css" so I don't have to make different version
numbered styles. If you see some weird styling, it's either
unfinished, or you need to press CTRL + Shift + R to hard refresh and
clear the cache
*The Neocities site before was literally just the Graphics Bazaar and
nothing else
TheTanooki's Website
Welcome to my corner of the internet =]
November 1st, 2023
Hoo boy... trying to make this box here look the way it
does while staying consistent was not easy at all... but
it was absolutely worth it, I have no regrets. So yeah,
another overhaul here, this time the dialogue boxes are
much closer to EarthBound, down to the colors chosen. I
also grabbed the Apple Kid font one of my friends used on
their website to use on here, although I noticed no bullet
point glyphs were on the font itself, so I went out of my
way to add my own so I can use it myself, while trying to
stay as accurate as possible to the games. I know there
will be people out there who want to know how to do this,
so I made a page dedicated to how you too can make your
own EarthBound dialogue boxes, either with HTML alone or
by using CSS classes. I've been watching One Piece as
well, finished the East Blue arc, and I've come to the
absolute conclusion that Luffy is definitely on the
spectrum, there's no doubt about that. Anyhow, this won't
be the last time this page recieves an overhaul either,
I'm going to keep at this website with what I've learned,
even if it kills me! (TRANSLATION: even if it's tedious
and time consuming as hell!) Background should also be
less eyestraining*, I was told I should do that for the
sake of others.
*The background was originally the EarthBound File
Select grid in all its eyestrainy small blocky brightly
colored glory made worse with how the background could
scroll alongside it. The background you see now with the
big blocks and softer colors that's locked in the
background was made as a result of someone warning me
about potential danger so thanks for the heads-up even
after all these years later
November 6th, 2023
I need to find a way to better journal this, I commented
my previous update text out, but I also don't want to
trash it completely either, plus I want others to be able
to read it. I'll find a way, but for now I should mention
that I'll be updating this website a bit more regularly
for smaller things. I also feel like I should make a blog
page to put my previous update text. Anyhow, school's
going fine, I'm still enjoying One Piece, and overall
things are fairly stable. Hell, I feel more awake now ever
since I've started getting into this whole coding school
thing. Feel free to look around, not much was added
compared to the previous version though.
...Y'know I really should work on the alt text for this
site's images, and I should really learn how to make that
alt text good.
February 17th, 2024
Woe, dropdowns be upon ye.** New year, new opportunities
to do dumb crap... is what I would say if I updated this a
month ago, my god an update was long overdue... actually
scratch that, an entirely new site from sratch is overdue,
I can't work like this anymore, there's too much that I
learned at this point, this site has charm but is also
severely lacking. But I won't wipe the site completely,
and I won't leave it completely abandoned. I'll update the
site some more until I'm able to make a brand new one. Too
tired to decorate portfolio page now, will do at some
other point.
**This was when I had previous blogs accessible via
dropdown rather than buttons
TheTanooki's Website
Welcome to my corner of the internet =]
So I finally got
around to updating my website after neglecting it for so long, I
suppose obligaton is a good motivation in some cases. And oh wow,
what an overhaul it is, this thing used to just be a list of art and
now it has pages and junk. There's certainly more I wish to do here,
and hopefully the higher powers of CSS will be kind to me. Will it
be hell to work with? Maybe, but at least I can see the changes
instantly... for now at least, and hoo boy do I feel like Javascript
will throw a wrench at things when I get to it. Regardless I hope to
really spruce up this site because I can't live like this forever...
there isn't enough video game references!
Ace's Art Gallery*
03/14/23
Welcome to my art gallery! There's barely anything here at the moment,
so far I've only sorted through my art by recognizable dates,
everything else is in the unsorted category and lacks the QOL
attributes that the sorted pieces have, but I'm glad to have made this
regardless, especially since this is my first time working with HTML
in general. I hope to expand this more sometime, and I hope you see
the progress as well. =)
Here's the one that inspired me to try this for myself
*My first page was originally just a single page where I uploaded my
art rather than a fully fleshed out website
03/15/23
Welcome to my art gallery! I've added and sorted through some of my
art and hoo boy did I cringe at my old art... not that I hate it, it's
just smething that comes with aging and getting better. Surely I'll
have the same effect with this page, but as of right now, I'm still
glad to have made this page. Note that some pieces lack titles and
even alt text, but don't worry I'll come around to it when I update
again. I hope to expand this more sometime, and I hope you see the
progress as well. =)
You may notice that there is a cat following your cursor/finger now...
well I'm not keeping any secrets,
here's where I got mine.**
**This was when my page originally had oneko.js integrated and when I
could locally host audio files for ADDICTI.MOD to be played
03/30/23
Welcome to my art gallery! It took quite some time but I got most of
the alt text out of the way, however I hope to finish applying alt
text to all my art before I move on to trying out new things. Some of
the alt text will likely be changed overtime to better suit things,
and there will be more to add here so stay tuned. I hope to expand
this more sometime, and I hope you see the progress as well. =)